I'm in a funk. A weird one. It's the kind of funk when I know everything is ok, and everything will be just fine, but I feel like something isn't right...or that most things aren't right. I don't know what it is. I feel like I "didn't get the memo" about life. Maybe it's the stress of going to school, maybe it's the upcoming furlough that will minimize my paycheck by 20%, maybe a combination, but the scary thing is... maybe it's something that I don't even know about yet. Sometimes I scare myself with these premonitions...Ok, I'm not psychic, but you know what I mean. On a good note, I finally got promoted (a thousand years later) and I got a new car which I love. I just don't get it. I feel some sort of disconnect.
What did the memo say? Who got one? Can you send me a copy? I'm begging here.
Back to the "good stuff"...Nick started baseball. He's only gone to like 2 practices so far, but he likes it and I'm glad because he needed a change. Tae Kwon Do was getting old to him. Not to down-talk Tae Kwon Do, cuz it was an awesome learning experience for all of us, but he's 8 and he gets bored of stuff easily.
Oh, and did I mention that it feels like my back is broken? Right now it's not so bad, thanks to a muscle relaxer and an anti-inflammatory, but omg, all day long for the last 4 days I've felt about 800 years old.
I think I just need to change it up a bit....that's gonna be the plan. I need to make some changes if I expect different results from one day to the next. Being more careful about my diet (not that I'm on a diet...I use that term loosely), and doing stuff. School is taking up a big part of my life outside of work and I need to make some changes, however small they need to be. I need something different to happen so I can feel a little better about what's going on with me. I have at least 6 weeks until finals, so I guess I should be excited that's not any sooner than it is.
See, and typing this all out, I feel like I'm being a bit of a drama queen (WHO???ME????) but like I said, I know everything is fine, it's just that I don't FEEL fine. Let's fix this...and by "let's", I mean "I'll" but I apparently could use some help....haha. Whatever. It's almost spring break...you know, the spring break where I still have to go to work and still have assignments due. ugh. Whatever....it is what it is...
